The following piece is an excerpt from my book, “Word, From Your Mother,” a daily guidance journal written for my children, Liv and Pierce-Gabriel.
You are not going mental! I’m going to share a text message that I passed on to my friend who always thinks she’s going crazy, but she is not. She is the total polar opposite of crazy. When I speak to her, all I see and hear through my sense perceptions are the most peaceful human being.
Here is the text message: Sher, you may think you’re going crazy, but you’re not. There is a beautiful stillness within you that draws me to you. That is your true essence. You need to tap into it! You give it away to everyone, including me, and leave yourself with what I call the “hamster on the wheel” brain, or the monkey brain. It would help if you had a stillness moment, like looking at the clouds you so adore.
It’s hard to think of “no-thing” when our mind is spinning. I’ve been there, too. It also takes a long time to untangle it, but you can do it. I can tell you that you won’t find peace externally; however, that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t seek help. Helping yourself is the best form of self-love and care. It helps to think about what Jesus once said, “The Kingdom of God is within you.” That means we have the means to heal ourselves because we are of God. We are divine beings having a human experience!
My aunt always told me to keep myself distracted—this way, thoughts won’t drive us nuts. I tried to do that, but I did it in the wrong way. I turned my distraction towards addiction which I thought could numb or alleviate all the spinning thoughts and emotions–not a good choice. It set me back so far, and it took a long time to heal from all the crap. We are all cut from the same bolt, Sher. We have the ultimate freedom to choose our path. As Abraham Hicks said, “We are so free, we can choose bondage.” Often, we do.
It sucks to have to sit in our shit, but we have to in order to rise above it! Every day, I make it a practice to accept “what is;” to truly surrender to the ego and all its antics. The ego is “mind stuff” that makes us feel like we’re going nuts, such as fear, hate, anxiety, depression, sadness, jealousy. When this stuff arises, be the witness of it. In other words, don’t say, “I am sad.” Instead, say, “I’m experiencing sadness…it’s okay; this is fleeting and will pass.” That is why you often quote, “This, too, shall pass.” Turn to meditation always and thank the Universe for the mundane things in life that we so often neglect to recognize.
You are so beautiful, and I love you. Now, for God’s sake, be silly and laugh! Life is too short. We forget about all this eventually! You are not losing your marbles; besides, who cares! Enjoy this moment–as it is all you have.