The following piece is an excerpt from my book, “Word, From Your Mother,” a daily guidance journal written for my children, Liv and Pierce-Gabriel.
I feel like I should be writing something profound, something mind-blowing, but nothing comes to mind today. I’m motivated to write these entries due to the inherent state of boredom that I’m feeling at work. It may be due to a lack of vision—not knowing my purpose.
Now, my primitive brain tells me that I’m in imminent danger since I don’t have a purpose. What are my thoughts telling me? “You’re in imminent danger of losing your job, getting into trouble, being unsuccessful, and leaving this Earth without contributing to your fullest potential because you don’t have a purpose.
Well, that is some scary shit! Who wants to leave without a purpose? The lower brain (or the conditioned mind) kicks up all sorts of reactions, mostly negative. Underneath it all is the very familiar and protective urge to remain safe; to not change. But, I’m willing to change! I’m not afraid to take risks. Right? If I leave my brain and go into my heart for the answers, I hear quite a different story. I hear that I’m doing the “work” every day. I’m serving others by default and not even aware of my actions because they are so automatic.
I stop and relax and listen to all the ways I’ve contributed to today. I realize that I’m not just interacting with others but listening to them, fully engaging with them. I see the light in their hearts, which is the same light within my own heart. I can see it in their eyes. That inner self that gets distracted by the “noise” does have higher brain “glimmers.” It is that part of the self that aligns with Source Energy. I feel that it is so simple, yet I’m complicating the matter because of my bad habits, my conditioned train of thought.
I ask myself often, “Am I on the train?” When I’m on the train, I know because my thoughts are spiraling down into the gloomy abyss. I catch myself often. I know that recognizing that I’m on the train is the first step in the awakening process.
I’ve been ebbing and flowing on my awakening process since 2014. Each day, it’s getting easier and better. I am impatient, though. I want the quick fix. I want to access that feeling of alignment and never let it go. I desire that to be my default brain. It’s so close, and I can feel that I’m right on the edge of enveloping myself in that state.
What am I manifesting? A good question that one should ask themselves every minute of the day. What are you manifesting? Is it positive energy and emotions? Are you taking action steps towards changing your evolution? Yes, yes, and yes! Then, why am I stuck?
In his book, Source Code Meditation, Dr. Michael Cotton explains that many of us are stuck midway between the higher and the lower brain and see glimpses of our transcendence. Yet, we always get pulled back down to old familiar patterns. There are ways to access your higher brain once believed only to have been achieved by the great masters of enlightenment.
In other words, we, as a collective, have the intrinsic ability to access the higher brain, such as the masters such as Jesus, Gautama Buddha, Babaji, did. I don’t think of them as myself their servant, for we are all one. I think of them as masters of the ego, for I believe this is how one achieves mastery. You let go of the “little me,” as Eckhart Tolle would describe the ego, and embrace the transcendent self or the infinite and divine inner being. You embody the free one; the one that doesn’t judge; the one that doesn’t seek a means to the end—the one that is unattached, empty, no-thing.